it's abandonment

cuz there weren't enough words

or, well, enough right words

displacement and a means to an end

a countdown to eternity

i couldn't decide if it was more important

to like something or to love something 

i couldn't decide

why all of a sudden those seemed like such different things

sometimes i wanna be sad

and i just end up neutral

i didn't want to want anymore

and i didn't want to have

and i certainly did not want to be neutral